Awareness of yourself and your beliefs
The problem with the ego is that it hides. It cannot exist in the light of your consciousness. In other words, it’s a lie—it doesn’t truly exist; it’s a fabrication. Your mind created it. It’s the reflection of you in the mirror of your own ideas.
If you stop thinking about it, it ceases to exist—that’s where the ego resides. It’s in the realm of the mirror image, in the space of what isn’t real relative to reality.
Reality exists, personality exists, your body exists, your essence exists, the divine behind you exists, but the idea of yourself does not. It’s invented, drawn by you.
How do you erase it? Stop thinking about it. Your thoughts about yourself—including how great you are and what you’ve achieved—feed the ego, making it stronger. And then, you won’t notice the moment when it takes over, dictating to you who you are. And based on that, you start acting one way or another.
The ego has its own goals, its own priorities. It takes root, branching off from the core light of your consciousness, and from the shadows, it broadcasts its ideas.
In reality, most people look like a bundle of subpersonalities. You look at someone, and it’s not even that there’s no "person"—it’s a crowd. A crowd of parental ideas about them, a crowd of their own ideas about themselves, a crowd of friends’ ideas, and countless other thoughts, all pushing against each other.
Within them, there’s an internal hierarchy battle. Each part wants to take the lead and say, “I’m in charge today, celebrating on this throne.”
Initially, it’s an aggressive internal struggle with oneself, so it doesn’t bring much benefit. It creates a back-and-forth dynamic. You look at yourself and say, “This is all nonsense!” And that creates another tension, which begins to push against the previous tension. This internal fight continues until it reaches a state of inner peace, where you’re neither for nor against—you’re just observing.
It may seem like observing is simple. It may seem like watching is nothing at all. But as time goes on and you watch this “nothing” for longer, you realize it’s far from simple. Immediately, an idea about what’s happening pops up, the mind evaluates and speaks it, and a decision is made. In other words, the mental computer executes a task and provides an answer—there it is. But when you’re neither for nor against, and you also observe the mind’s response, that’s when you begin to see your ego.
And once you start to see it, the ego behaves very cleverly. It hides in every possible way and creates problems for you: “Oh, so you think you’re in charge?”—and now you have a headache. “Oh no, my head hurts”—and your attention shifts. “Oh, so you think you’re in charge?”—now your stomach hurts. The focus switches again, and you’re distracted.
After you’ve gone through this process ten times, cried twenty times, sat in the bathroom with your fears and nightmares two hundred times, you finally find peace.
Sort things out within yourself, bring order. Find that subpersonality, the one who acts as the ruler with the "king" in the head, as they say. The one who’s at least somewhat reasonable. You need to nurture and care for that part, so it brings order: stable hands in the stable, cooks in the kitchen! It should assign everyone to their proper places.
Because there are unconscious processes that must function, the inner mechanisms of our being. They need to be there, but we can’t allow "mob rule," so to speak.
As I’ve said before, everything is already within you. You are both God and the Devil, and all the angels, archangels, and everything in between are within you. But the image the personality clings to—the one a person wraps themselves in—that’s what they go with. And most often, a person isn’t aware of this image. So, the identity given by parents, confirmed by friends, and reinforced by teachers remains limited. That’s how a person moves through life.
Light and Love🙏💖
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